MY random diary page !!!

such things are a result of  insomnia!!!i act truly jobless sometimes though i am!!i realli dunno why i posted this randomly!!

Ahh!!! That very single moment, I was not my own self

I didn’t believe that I was a living thing

No flashing thoughts

No fears

No sense of time

Thinking about nothing certainly…

Triumph-disaster

Good-bad

You-me

Dawn-dusk

Not a hint of these came to my attention

But …but just for one petite second!!!!!

The next second everything was  predictable….hmmmm

I doubt…is this what u call eternity??

[Went through this episode at some stage in my rain watching activity today]

 

Finding my wings!

My childhood lies like a distant memory

As i stand on the threshold of adulthood,

I’m no longer that little lad i used to be,

I’m almost a woman,

Learning what i should.

      Dont expect me to believe evrything you say,

As i have found an ability to reason,

And am difficult to sway,

Give me a few years and i’ll be gone,

Transformed into a woman,

Who will know right from wrong.

Please try and understand,

I’m not bereft of knowledge and sense,

It’s just that I am ,

Passing through a phase called “adolescence”

Freedom?

Authority of any kind esp in the field of thought n understanding is the most destructive ,evil thing.
You have to be ur own teacher n ur own disciple.
So i’ve created the world as i am.
I can observe myself only in relationship becoz all life is relationship.I cannot exist by myself.I exist only in relationship to ppl,things n ideas and in studying my relationship to outward things n ppl, as well as to the inward,i begin to understand myself.Every other form of understanding is merely an abstraction n I cannot study myself in abstraction;
Iam not an abstract entity;therefore I have to study myself in actuality–as I AM,not as I WISH to be.
I love the simplicity that can look at ourselves as we actually are without any distortion–to say when we lie we lie,not cover it up or run away frm it.
The moment i’ve achieved anything i cease to have that quality of innocence n humility; the moment i have a conclusion or start examining frm knowledge,i’m finished,for then i’m translating every living thing in terms of old.
Wheras if I have no foothold,if there’s no ceratinity,
no achievement,there is freedom to look,to achieve.
And when I look with freedom it it always new.